I can worry so much. I can say “everyone worries”. But everyone never makes something okay.
This month I was a little overwhelmed by how we could pay for my masters program. The more semesters I have to take (because of scheduling issues), the more money it costs. Truly frustrating. In the end, we’re talking $13,000. That’s a lot to tack on to someone who is paying a mortgage, expenses, all the home repairs or renovations… Money, money money.
But it’s something we could do, I can get through those payments. I can avoid taking out student loans. So, God is good. He never gives us more than we can handle. I took a chill pill, and started saving. Spending freeze, saving money on groceries. Eating out less. No Amazon and no redbox movies… That’s pretty bad. But we kept getting hit with more and more things. A car repair that cost us $750. My bi-annual car insurance, that I completely forgot about… and soon enough it started to hurt. In addition to that everything was breaking all in the course of a week; the ceiling fan, the leaf blower, garbage disposal was iffy, and the kitchen lights! Money wasn’t gone, but dipping into savings is a danger zone situation for me. I hattee it. But I had to say, God what’s next… what’s the plan?
Then this week, I finally got a call back from the financial aid office. It’s paid for.Something I was originally told I wouldn’t apply for since I am married. But it’s processed and will pay through the end of my program. This is God. And I need to recognize that, along with all the blessings he gives us. I know you may not understand, but those of us who study Business, Law, Finance, or Accounting… we don’t get financial aid. It is beyond rare. And God has looked after me and provided for me through my whole higher education. I am sincerely thankful. And especially thankful for my parents, because without them I wouldn’t have these opportunities to attend Huntingdon College and now Auburn Montgomery. Truly Thankful!
I hope more than anything that this posts reminds you of something God has done for you. A reminder to say thank you. Whether it’s a 2% raise, insurance that paid for a medical bill, a paycut you didn’t receive, an acceptance letter… I hope that you see God’s hand in it. And remember to stop all the worry.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. Phil 4:6
I can’t worry. I can’t say that God can’t. Because he does. Again and again.
